just not there yet...

Ok, so I have a baby and 4 other children. I have a wonderful husband who is around and present when it comes to everything. I have a nice home.

I am restless...I think is the best word to describe how I am feeling. However there is not much I want to do about it...

I think the LONG LONG winter we are having is a huge part of it.

I love eating mini eggs and have a hard time controlling it....I know I need to get them out of the house. Well easter is this weekend and my children will get them.

I want to lose but the scale is staying the same or going up a touch. I get discouraged by the numbers right now.

I know some don't step on a scale and just keep going. I know some do it everyday to keep motivated. I need to do it everyday to be motivated it seems that works better for me, but at the same time, when the number is up I hate it and when it's down it doesn't last.

I need a kick in the pants and get back to the couple work outs a day!!

I have been doing mornings for the most part. I have started the running again, hard when you are nursing! I started week 2 today. It went well.

I wish I had the cash to get a trainer in right now, that would be great. I have one I can get 3 times a week for $99, But I don't have the cash right now. I need the kick so I can keep on going!

sorry about the rant a little...just feeling it day!!

~T

BLAH

So it's been a while and I want to say that I am totally motivated, well I am not.

At least not fully...

I have worked out in the last week 5 times, so that's good.

I have decided that if I don't work out 1st thing in the morning that is ok too, as long as I do it at some point

I have started my running program again and will be doing the 3rd run tomorrow.

I feel great when I work out and it takes away some of the stress. (I really should have worked out today! But there is no chance, but I guess I could be doing that instead of bloggin! But then I would have to shower since I have a meeting tonight!)

I have been eating WAY WAY WAY too much crap and am craving sweet like nothing else. I have to get over this and soon.

I have been drinking a good amount of water.

I have been walking to get the kids when I can and going on family walks.

I have been trying to get to sleep when the little man goes down so I get more zzz's

I have to get back on my schedule of housework, and been doing pretty good, but need to get better!

Oh the lists!

Wish me luck on getting better.

I can't say I know what I weigh right now, but will blog about that one of these days....I still think I need more sleep to get organized!

~T