Almost the end of another month

So this past week has been brutal, I have been PMSing....so I have wanted to eat lots and lots of chocolate....have I, yes, has it been lots and lots, no. I have been crazing it and want it right now. Instead I had a cup of herbal tea and and sitting typing this and going to go to bed soon.

I hope that tomorrow I will have at least stayed at the same weight. I hope to have a lose but who knows.

I have been drinking lots of water.

I have not eaten lots and lots of chocolate.

I have worked out everyday.

I did spend a lot of quality time with the family this weekend out of the house.

I have been trying to be more present when eating.

I did have a nice date night with my hubby at home, but we were present and in the moment.

I want a clear knowledge of why I am having a tough time with losing weight still.

I want a clear complexion. I don't think PMS helps, but still...I am not 16 any more!!!

Oh my, off to bed I go!

Night

~T

Visual person

So I am not holding or maintaining right now, I am a little up from a the last week and not happy about it. But what can you do. Get back on track and feel good that you are trying harder today then yesterday. I am stressed about something, not sure what yet. I am trying to figure that out and once I do, I hope to clear my head of it.

I am going to sit down with my head....and figure out what's going on.

So I printed off a calendar for the next 5 months. I am going to use it as a reminder that it doesn't all happen in a day. That's my biggest issue is that it won't happen all in one day even though that is what I want. So I need to change my thinking about that.

Next week will be a weigh in and an update and a clearer head!!

~T

Monday Weigh in and Work out

Monday Weigh in!

So being sick and not doing well the last few days has been hard to work out. But I am starting to feel better still not a 100% and could use a nap, but my baby might not allow for that....

Week 1 212.4

Week 2 211.4

Down 1 lbs

Since starting Dec 20 2011 -5lbs

Averaging 1 lbs a week which isn't a lot be it is good enough for me. I want it gone so I can keep it off in the long run and it took more than a month or two to gain it!

So here is a program I am going to try for the next week and let you know how it works out!

I found this on a tumblr....

Have a great day everyone!

~T

doing ok...maybe not....

Well, I have been really sick the last few days and have not been able to work out at all....which is ok. I have to take care of myself when I am sick. So I spent 2 days sitting and really not doing anything. I have a sore head and throat. I am looking forward to feeling better and getting back to working out again. By Monday I should be good to go.

I am so excited to be able to wear cute clothes again...ok well I have never been one to wear cute, trendy clothes....especially in the last 9 years of having babies and losing weight. I just never have totally felt comfortable in my own skin. Which is really sad. Since when I weighted 140-155 before I got married I still thought I was fat. If only I knew what I know now....

I would be happy with myself and not let anyone tell me differently.

I would love myself.

I would tell myself that I may not be perfect, but I am perfectly me.

I would tell myself, I am healthy, I work out, and I eat well, what more could I ask for.

Sometimes I wish I could go back for that one reason...but know that's not going to happen. So know I have to work my butt off to get back to the old 'FAT' me!

I will be happy with 1 lb lost a week.

I will be happy when I work out.

I will be happy when I chose to eat well.

I will be happy with the healthy choices I make and get back to a healthy weight.

~T

New day

I did have a GREAT work out today. I love doing my treadmill at 15 incline and 3.8-4.0, it can get tiring by the time 35 minutes is up, but I love burning the 600 calories!! Then I did 20 mins on the wii and burned another 200 calories.

I did eat a couple cookies today, but at least I didn't eat 10:)

I drank a lot of water today.

I did do a lot of house cleaning....which is always good! Organizing my boys room....so many clothes when you have 4 boys to go through them. And my girl has tons of clothes which we are grateful for hand me downs....but I need to get rid of some so she has room in her room :)

Looking forward to documenting some of my journey....and see what happens. I know I can do this. I am ready...again!

~T

Started again

I know on and off again...I don't really have all the time in the world to blog, but will try to keep up a little more than I have been!

Starting Weight 216.4 Dec 20th 2011

Today's Weight 212.4 Jan 9th

I had my baby almost a year ago. It has been a very stressful year in a lot of ways. Not to say that I should be eating to make myself feel better, but that's what I did. I was eating thinking ok it's not a big deal, and then my pants started to get tighter and my face and sides were not where I wanted them to be....so after giving birth I put on 15 lbs. just eating crap....Working out was tricky with a newborn and 4 other children. Even though they are good while I am working out, it was finding the time and putting in the sweat that I needed too. I was just being lazy working out and eating crap. I have tried to eat less, I have tried not to eat chocolate, I have tried to work out tons. I just need to find a balance in my life and truly make the life switch. My head is in it and so is my heart. I have recruited a good friend to do it with me. we are emailing each other ever few days to check in and it has been helping. I want to get rid of this dang fat and feel good about my self.

I have had a hard time in the past on this blog with my goal and keeping to them. Doesn't help that when I really get going I have another baby....

1 day at a time

1 meal at a time

1 lb at a time.